Attached

Dec 4, 2009 002

she’s at her cuddliest when she’s ready for sleep

she holds her dolly, blanket, and still tries to grab for a finger to hold onto

to make sure you’re still there

both of my kids are little love bugs

attached some would say

and I take that as a compliment

yesterday was a rough day

I yelled

a few times

and scared my little girl

Fynn took it in stride, and went on to the next thing

but it stayed with Paige for most of the day

now and then she’d burst into tears when I would say something in a stern way

or just look at her in a questioning manner

yesterday was a day I would not like to repeat

but today is new, and there are grand adventures on the horizon

and I am thankful for this day to hug and kiss and snuggle my babies

today will be a day I’ll want to repeat

it’s in the air

and I’ll hold her hand and keep her close as long as she allows it

apologizing and making amends the only way a mama can

by being attached in the here and now

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  1. I am sorry you had a hard day yesterday. Praying that today is better. May God bless you and yours.

  2. Awwwww, try not to be so hard on yourself. Still, I’ll never forget the first time I made Miss M. cry with my temper…my heart broke.

  3. Ugh…yesterday was one of those days for Sean & I as well. It breaks my heart that I scared him when I yelled at him, so I can so relate to what you wrote here.

    And I’m with you…I also see it as a positive thing, that your child’s attached . I don’t understand why some people see that as a negative trait. They have thier entire lives ahead of them to be independant, why push them into it now, when they’re still so young and not developmentally ready?

  4. I’ve had those days. Sometimes more than I should. But man are kids resilient. Not that that gives us the yell, but if it happens from time to time it likely won’t harm them for life. I’m so happy that I’ve gotten my emotions back under control now that I’ve been on this Anti-Candida diet.

    She is a doll baby, Corrine.

    Nell

  5. I just found this post, Corinne. Instead of leaving a long comment, I’m going to send you to read something. I wrote it long before I started blogging, just as a journal entry on a day like you describe. But I put it up on my blog to remind me (and to admit to everyone) that we all have days like this, and we just need to do our best to keep them at bay. It’s one of my earliest posts, called Even Good Mamas Have Ugly Days. http://clarity-chaos.blogspot.com/2009/05/even-good-mamas-have-ugly-days.html

  6. Perfectly worded. My patience has been thin lately … It took some quiet time to get a hold on the mama monster from within. I hope your days have been more peaceful lately.

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