Passed with flying chocolate icing

He passed. Fynn passed his food challenge. Fynn can now eat peanut butter. I can stop scanning labels for traces of, and might contain… I’m still in a state of disbelief and shock.

We celebrated with a trip to Starbucks, where I said he could pick whatever treat he wanted from the dessert case. Eyes wide open, I picked him up for a better view. His arm outstretched, finger pointing. I knew exactly where it was going. The chocolate cupcake, with icing a mile high. Two please!

My drink order came up, then we took our plate of cupcakes to a corner table. We sat, me and my little guy, by ourselves. Baby sister at home with the grandparents, Daddy at work, it was just me and him. Fynn didn’t inherit just my blue eyes, he’s got a love of cupcakes and icing that tops mine. Chocolate is his happy food, and he’ll do the cutest dance to prove it. Since he was born I had my heart set on dates like this: hot latte for me, milk for him, cupcakes for both. Me and him. Him and me. Just us.

We sat there this afternoon, with the mid afternoon sun pouring in, our eyes squinting from the sun and from laughter. Giggles over icing covered noses and the crumbs that surrounded us. Giving each other bites of our cupcakes. I watched him licking the frosting and smiling from ear to ear as chocolate covered his face. Then they pricked. It took all that I had not to let the tears fall. So I smiled, closed my eyes and threw my head back, smiling a secret thankful smile. The worry was gone. I was not concerned with what was in the cupcake, what could be in it, or what could have been on the machinery. Gone. The years ahead of us hold many worries and concerns, but not that of a peanut allergy and epi pens and anaphylactic shock.

As I write this I’m still overwhelmed with emotions. I’m so thankful that God met us halfway. Had we not been so vigilant the past two years, Fynn might not have passed his peanut challenge. Even when people do as we did, it doesn’t always turn out this way. Fynn’s the exception to the rule {and you could tell by the emotionless allergist’s face, his smile said a thousand words} We did our part, and He saw, heard our prayers,  recognized, and helped the rest of the way. I’m not going  question, or ask why us and not other deserving families. Right now I can only focus on being thankful.

Fynn and I stayed at the coffee shop just long enough to finish our cupcakes and clean up hundreds of crumbs. We walked hand in hand through the doors into the fresh air. My step a little lighter, eyes a little watery. As we headed home he told me over and over how he got to try peanut butter, how he passed his test, how he loved his cupcake. My cheeks hurt from smiling, my belly filled with chocolaty goodness, my legs ached to jump for joy.


I feel the need to add that this post is not intended to gloat about Fynn outgrowing his allergy. We are grateful, but know that not everyone’s situations turn out like ours has. I know there are many families who read this who are coping with food allergies. There is hope for outgrowing them, but if not, hopefully those around us {you} will understand the severity of food allergies and will have compassion and honesty in their hearts. My thoughts are with you, and I’m oddly thankful for the opportunity to have learned about living with food allergies.


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19 responses to “Passed with flying chocolate icing

  1. Alright, Fynn! That is the best news ever…seriously! There are other nut butters that are yummy, but nothing else beats peanut butter.

    Hugs little buddy.


  2. That’s really good news. So glad to hear it! Now that this chapter is over, I can say: I can’t imagine life without peanut butter! I hope he feels the same way. 🙂

  3. Yay!!! This was very touching. Really. Even that last side note. You are so thoughtful. So glad to hear that everything worked out!! Bring on the Nutella!!

  4. I’m so happy for you. I know how hard a peanut allergy is. We have several kids in preschool with them. We have to read everything before giving out snacks. We have pretty much made the preschool a peanut free zone, but you always have to be careful and read, read, read. It is unbelievable the things that have peanuts in them or were made in a facility that has peanuts. Give Fynn a big old peanut butter cookie from me.

  5. Great news! I love my Starbucks dates with Big Boy and am so glad you got to share such a special time with Fynn without any worries. So happy for you!

  6. Oh what a wonderful, fantastic, amazing RELIEF! I’m thrilled for you guys. Mostly you because Fynn may never have known the difference, but you, you can walk easier, breathe easier. Living with Hannah’s allergies is scary and hard but when I’m out with Luke who has no allergies, it’s like a sweet breath of fresh air.

    Thank you for your last note. I wish everyone could be as considerate and understanding as you. It would take away so much of the fear. xo

  7. Congratulations on your good news. May God continue to bless you and yours above and beyond what you can even imagine!

  8. Praise God! I did not even realize that children had a chance to outgrow nut allergies. My brother is deathly allergic and I have one too many memories of him in a panic, in need of an epi pen, because he didn’t read the label on a box of cookies – or because a restaurant used pine nut flour in their chocolate cake and didn’t think it would matter – even after we asked if the cake had nuts or not.

    It really must be an amazing weight off of your shoulders – God is good. (And really, I’ve always felt terrible for my brother not being able to enjoy the deliciousness that is peanut butter…or Nutella.) Happy for Fynn!

  9. That’s such wonderful news. I am so happy and relieved for you, and I am glad you had a great Starbucks date– I love a good SB cupcake and a date with my little men, too.

  10. I am so happy for you! Allergies are horrible for a child, and even worse for a parent. So gloat away! I sure don’t mind it.

  11. That’s terrific news!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m glad that there’s now one less thing to worry about and weigh you down. He (and you) earned that cupcake.

  12. I am so so SO happy for you and Fynn!! It must be such a weight off your shoulders to not have to deal with that peanut allergy anymore. In fact, I’m sure it will take some adjustments (happy though they may be) to get used to it…not having to read all the labels, issues with dining out, playdate snacks, etc! That is so wonderful!!

    Your note at the end was extremely thoughtful as well. As the mother of a child with food allergies, I know exactly what you mean. I didn’t take your post as gloating at all, and though I’m hoping that my Finn will outgrow his allergies too, I am thankful to have my eyes opened to the issues surrounding food allergies!

    Now go enjoy some peanut butter!! 🙂

  13. Yea! Can you pass me the peanuts, please??! 🙂

  14. Hooray!!!! The reeses cups can return!! 🙂
    So happy for you guys. Really. What a big weight has been lifted.

  15. That must be such a huge relief! And that’s great that you got to have a date with your little man, too!

  16. Bri

    Hooray for Fynn! And I loooove cupcakes too.

    By the way, I made Ivy’s headband. Glad you like it. I’m contemplating opening an etsy shop, and if I do, you can be sure I’ll be advertising on my own blog. 🙂


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